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Do you have a friend in life?

About me....?

No I don't, to be honest.Although I have one and she is the only person who is kind to me but I can't always rely on her to express myself as she also has her own "big" social circle.I am often described as a quiet,shy,introvert girl which obviously I am. I never ever liked going to school.I feel sick when people constantly discuss about their school life.Unecessary nostalgia you know! Why the hell they can't live in the present? and these people are always like:"Do you remember him/her from our school?"/"School life was great!"/"Do you know this girl/that guy is dating whom?" I mean Why is it important to talk about this stuff? School never gave the opportunity.No, now you'll say "She was introvert,she didn't participate,she ain't interested" but that's not the case I mean YES I did hesitate to participate in the first place but there was no one to tell me that it'll be fine if I happen to mess up everything, it doesn't matter if I can't act like those four girls around me OR I am too shy to talk to a guy.Often in lunch breaks, I used to sit alone or somedays I used to sit in a girls group or a boys group and not to mention but boys were more frank and welcoming than girls. Whenever,I used to be in girl group it was like I am invisible, I am alone because it didn't matter whether I was there or not no one asked my opinion niether was I interested in those bullshit conversations!Apology for such harsh language but my experience deserves this.The exact opposite situation was in a boys group as I mentioned .I did try to approach some people but they always had their huge "popular" groups and I was always kinda outsider.

I was good in Academics so naturally I was worst in Sports but again would you miss any opportunity to trouble the topper of your class? I was always be a substitute player or when teams were made. Do you know about the fellow who is selected at last because no one wants them? Yeah that fellow was me.Teachers always liked 2-3 students who were good at Sports and naturally their friends were benefitted and for heaven's sake!I didn't had any friend! It's okay if you like to be alone but it's worst if you are left lonely.My parents often commented that maybe I acted weird or I was rude and so did I agreed.I always point out the shortcomings in my personality and I judged myself maybe I am not good enough for anyone.I never really accepted myself .There are barely any pictures of myself and I am missing out on my Teenage life as people around me say that.Thanks to Facebook and Instagram;that gave me a new platform to nurture my flaws,my insecurities.

I don't know what kind of memories would I carry for myself as currently neither am I good in Academics nor in any other stuff.

I am on a BREAK!

P.S:Above picture was clicked by my sister two months ago when I was damn frustrated.I don't like to see myself niether like to show my face to others;)